[ when he hears 'tommy', thomas's shoulders lift and fall in an almost-laugh, thinking about newt calling him 'tommy' and how weird that sort of thing would sound coming from kate. or from anyone without the accent, really. or anyone that hasn't seen him trying to do gardening and getting pissed off at a rake.
but it passes, and he turns his head to watch her speak, listening quietly and absorbing it. critical and distant. yeah, that... explains him fairly well. critical, distant and scared out of his mind, half the time. he'd thought that would stop, here, but now it's more of a low simmering thing. when will one of them disappear, when will something from their world get here. now there's more to lose. ]
I guess Tommys are just like that. [ spoken with a mild, half-smile. more just to fill the spaces as he mulls it over. the fact that she mentioned something personal does mean something to him. for all thomas sidesteps things he doesn't want to discuss, he recognizes the effort put into that. ]
There's a lot of people that trust you here. Loki, America, Stiles. Kitty, I guess, if she ever actually trusts people. [ kitty's a little special. ] Force of will can get you a long way, too.
[ It can keep you alive when you shouldn't be. but he's not sure he can will alone can work him out of the pattern of sticking his trust in a small few and closing out the rest. half of the reason kanaya is even in that circle is due to the fact newt had already accepted her by the time thomas got into heropa. he's pretty certain force of will can't change his nature of needing to verify things himself, or ask questions and prod at things until he gets it. but that was only part of that talk. the rest was thomas getting emotional over something that shouldn't have been emotional. ] I know you know what you're doing, and I think you're good at it. I'm... not that great at filling a role, or taking orders.
I'll be less of a slinthead, though. If something's up, I'll tell you. [ being a prick, he can change. talking to kate, he can work on. the part where 'leader' comes in, he's not so sure about. or even if he wants that changed. ]
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but it passes, and he turns his head to watch her speak, listening quietly and absorbing it. critical and distant. yeah, that... explains him fairly well. critical, distant and scared out of his mind, half the time. he'd thought that would stop, here, but now it's more of a low simmering thing. when will one of them disappear, when will something from their world get here. now there's more to lose. ]
I guess Tommys are just like that. [ spoken with a mild, half-smile. more just to fill the spaces as he mulls it over. the fact that she mentioned something personal does mean something to him. for all thomas sidesteps things he doesn't want to discuss, he recognizes the effort put into that. ]
There's a lot of people that trust you here. Loki, America, Stiles. Kitty, I guess, if she ever actually trusts people. [ kitty's a little special. ] Force of will can get you a long way, too.
[ It can keep you alive when you shouldn't be. but he's not sure he can will alone can work him out of the pattern of sticking his trust in a small few and closing out the rest. half of the reason kanaya is even in that circle is due to the fact newt had already accepted her by the time thomas got into heropa. he's pretty certain force of will can't change his nature of needing to verify things himself, or ask questions and prod at things until he gets it. but that was only part of that talk. the rest was thomas getting emotional over something that shouldn't have been emotional. ] I know you know what you're doing, and I think you're good at it. I'm... not that great at filling a role, or taking orders.
I'll be less of a slinthead, though. If something's up, I'll tell you. [ being a prick, he can change. talking to kate, he can work on. the part where 'leader' comes in, he's not so sure about. or even if he wants that changed. ]